nesmith

well, apparently, what i thought was strep was not exactly what i had imagined. when i awoke the day following my previous post, my eyes, face and neck were so swollen that i couldn't feel my jawline and a couple tube-fuls of blood drawn by the ER nurses told the doctors i have mono. suck.

so i did my research and found out symptoms of mono include facial swelling (my sister said my swollen eyes made me look asian) and a sore throat, so i thought that the worsening of my symptoms was totally normal for mono.

the next day, my tonsils were quite large and on wednesday, they were HUGE! to the point i was having difficulty breathing. what the heck? is there a break ever from health issues?? i couldn't swallow water. my mom cut a normal-sized pain killer into 8 teeny tiny pieces so i could swallow and it was excruciating to do so. it took me about 10 minutes to swallow those pieces and all the energy i had. i had to sleep upright so i could breathe a bit easier.

i had the thoughts on multiple occasions throughout that day to simple enjoy the time i had left with my family since i clearly wouldn't have much longer. i could only take shallow breaths.

the next day (thursday), it had gotten worse and i couldn't take it any longer, we went to the doctor, who also told me i had tonsillitis on top of my mono. really? come on!! my head was killing me and i was super weak, so my doctor had me checked into the hospital where i was hooked up to an IV and had a ton of drugs pumped into me over the next couple of days.

i was released on saturday and rested as much as possible after that, but man, has life been crazy lately! between moving to arizona and all that drama to moving home and having this happen. better now than later when i'm back in school. it just testifies to me even further that Heavenly Father has a plan and things happen in a specific order for a reason. i'm so glad i listened and withdrew from school for this semester! it would have been horrid trying to keep up with everything with all that's gone on. phew!

i just scheduled my tonsillectomy for the 15th, so let's get those suckers out and hopefully then we can figure out what's going on with my back. if i have to have surgery, i'd rather have it done before school starts so i can at least go to school full-time, even if i wouldn't be able to have a job for a little while. we'll see what happens. it would sure be nice to go to school and have a job again. i miss it. and i also miss being able to buy clothes...i found these beautiful boots that are calling out to me. but alas, little ones, now is not the time.